Taking Time Out #LittleLoves


I haven't been doing very well lately. In case you hadn't noticed, I haven't blogged for over a month. Everything seemed to get on top of me and one day, when I started crying at work, I realised I needed to take a break. I went to see my doctor and she referred me for some CBT, gave me my usual prescription of anti-depressants and advised me to go home for a while. The stresses of living alone, being away from home, studying for a Masters, working part time, volunteering and trying to keep on top of everything just got to be too much. I know there are people who can handle a lot more than this in their lives and still thrive, but I'm not one of those people. I broke down from trying to do too much and I had to learn to say no and take some time out for myself. The support I got from my university, my employers and the people around me was incredible and it made things so much easier. I spent the weeks at home recuperating, taking long bubble baths, cosying up on the sofa to watch TV and eating my mum's cooking. It helped me enormously. I learned that it is ok to fail sometimes and that no-one judges me as harshly as I judge myself. I also learned that there are a lot of people in my life who really care about me, and some people who didn't make any effort with me at all. It has made me appreciate the good ones a lot more, and I've decided to take a step back from the friends who weren't there for me when I really needed them. As my mental health gradually improved, my physical health went downhill and I developed a bad chest infection which I was given antibiotics for. So it's been quite a long haul of not feeling myself recently. But I'm coming towards the end of my course of antibiotics, I've moved back to my flat in Sheffield and it's my birthday next week, so I'm hoping things are on their way up now. It's been a long time since I did a Little Loves post, but here are some things I've been loving in the past month...

Read
I haven't been able to focus my attention on reading a book for a long time, but I find Instagram captions manageable when I'm struggling. My favourite people on Instagram are @brummymummyof2, @louisepentland, @bettymagazine@ambambeloves and @coffeeworksleep. They all brighten up my day and I feel like they're friends I haven't met.

Watched
I have been obsessed with watching Tattoo Fixers while I've been ill, more for how much I love Sketch, Jay, Alice and Paisley than for the tattoos. I would still never get a tattoo myself, but I find it fascinating to watch them being done.

Heard 
50s music never fails to lift my spirits so I've been listening to my Dreamboats & Petticoats albums a lot to cheer myself up. I can't help but sing along to those songs.

Wore
When I've managed to get dressed, I've been living in this dress I got from New Look recently. It's so soft and comfy and it makes me feel really cute even if I'm having a bad day. Bonus points for how floaty it is so I can disguise the belly that's got a little bit podgier with all the comfort eating I've been doing.

and lastly...
My boyfriend has been so supportive of me while I have been struggling and I'm so grateful to him for being there for me. When I was bed bound with my chest infection, he came to visit me every day to give me a cuddle and bring me food.

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  1. So, so pleased that you've had the support and time out that you've needed. It's so important that we look after ourselves and know our limits. It sounds like you are doing all the right things.
    Thanks for the insta love! You know I love yours too.
    Hope this week is being good to you xx

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    1. Thanks Morgana :) feeling so much better now xxx

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